my love.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008'♥

\\ you and i.\\

i don't always say the nicest things to you and, i will say the most cruel things when i am hurt and angry.

but you will be there and never once have you walked away.

i am always flicking your nips,pulling stunts on you,scaring you,and making you watch horror flicks,

but you will always be a good sport, bear all sufferance ,and love me still.

i am always a sabotage to both our diets and wallets , always finding excuses not to exercise and be indulgent.

but you will always gladly be mysmellyfattybelly'omelly and be fat together.

i tell jokes , that only i , will laugh to it.

but you will always try to give a weak 'omg.am-i-supposed-to-laugh-to-that' smile. and not box me.

i dont always remember to wake up with you for sch or have cereal breakfast,

but you will always remember to set the alarm for me to wake up and text me to have my breakfast.

i may not hold you to sleep at night, but just so you know,

i can never sleep- without you ,by my side.
uevoli.

1:38 AM

Saturday, August 23, 2008'♥

-the #1 wishlist.-

i dont come up with a wishlist very often.

since , everything else in my life is pretty quite dispensable.

you can live without anything and everything ( commodities. ) in the world.

.

.

.

.

but i think i reallyy really reallly really really x 1000000gazillionmazillion will like to have this phone.

nopes, i aint falling for all that 'apple' cult marketing gimmicks or senseless consumerism chase.

sighs.

i want a augustsantaclaus.

11:33 PM

Friday, August 22, 2008'♥

//broken lips.//

with random clicks,

i found out that people whom i have known, to be coupled for the longest time, arent together anymore.

the lips went dry.

the heart raced with disconcertion and fear.

and that someone,whom i have always known to placate me in moments of doubt - isnt around.

i have grown reliant,insecure and selfish these days.

and i wonder, " have i really fallen in love?"

i wasnt like that.

3:31 PM

'♥

//really? really. //

this week has been a ride. for reasons which she will never have answers to.
those breaks between lessons,luncheons, and time wasted doing nothing and wondering,with nowhere to go, are spent ~~talking~~ to many people. Listening, to be exact.

it's like a long due intermission .a fresh breather ,from what has always been.

she realised, she learnt.
there was nothing more she could say.
afterall,

we had, and we were, nothing to begin with.

2:20 PM

Thursday, August 21, 2008'♥

// academia comatose. //

having to resort to using sleeping aids for the lethargy this body is going through, is just , futile and pitiful. i cant remember when was the last time, i remotely even had a good night sleep.i am wallowing in all the self pitying , i can ever indulge myself in.

there will always be enough and adequate causes of worries, errands, deadlines that renders sleeping impossible .Especially knowing my tendencies, to oversleep and skip sch, i just then , choose not to sleep,altogether.

coupling with all my sociology nonsense, of marx's, durkeim's and hobbes , i am suffering for indefinite cranial failure, and academia comatose. Sociology isnt something that's really hard to comprehend especially for the discerning observers of our time .it is just -tedious.

sch's alittle more bearable . renewed friendships and budding buddies.

sighs.
i hate myself for being the control freak that i am.
i cant wait to fly off to europe with theboy yearend.
i just need my sleep and my food.

thank you for always tucking me in, and holding me. hunniemoo.

4:57 PM

Wednesday, August 06, 2008'♥

singapore flyer,
marina promenade,
5 August 2008,
nikon D80,
18-55mm,vivitar 70-210mm,

eloera jesusa woon.

he drowns in his dreams-
an exquisite extreme I know.
he’s as damned as he seems;
and more heaven than a heart could hold.

1:06 AM

Monday, August 04, 2008'♥

i am hungry.
i cant sleep.
and i have a craving for mcgriddles.

:(

5:01 AM

'♥

//linger on.//

3.40am and there are no signs this body is going to surrender to the calls of the sheets and the dawning sky. the caffine rush from my overdose of tea , has never kept my thoughts clearer and more pronounced.i realise that, there's no need for much deliberation on reasons for the well deserved peace and calming fashion my days are taking. Of course,school is starting soon, and it's with a renewed anticipation of what lies ahead.

of which,i am glad to say
-new unspoken responsibilities and obligations are charged to us, in the new year ahead.happy anniversary,love.
-my cap score 's upped to a 3.87, renewing interests in the somewhat mundane varsity life of mine.
-with much certainty, europe trip with theboy at the end of the year is possible now.
-union camp, which i joined as a senior/councillor has injected much joy in the waning social life.
-that amazing one night, though very short, spent with yy,has bridged all the social distance work and time can do in a year.
-pounds, are lost but more fashion indulgences to be gained. being 42kg has brought more tragedy to the purse strings than before.
-new experimentation with toy cameras, expired films and film slides , means i can now be deluded in my colored reality of red flashes and light leaks.
-there's still much getting used to being thoroughly spoiled and loved by your parents and his.
-truth be told, i want exchange programs and grad school more than ever.to take flight, and ride on dreams woven on the hopes of my folks.

i am alittle tired.
but they will linger on.

3:40 AM