- 'pedestrian' movie plot-

if there's anything really left in this extremely vapid drudgery( commonly known as ' life'), that can excite me , that would be the new zeros in the bank.

since i have been in the poverty rut for the longest time,and having to accustom that it's commonplace that my wretched life should be without the wonders of retail therapy, i am now , at loss , on how and what to buy. so much for being decadent and indulgent.

boo.

I am bored beyond belief. i am showering more these days, just to kill time. that's how bored i really am.But i am not done with my books, films and musik too.

It's in 12 days time i will be off in a jet plane to freeze my ass off in the alps, and i am not in the least bit excited.

To be honest, i think i am looking forward to school. I reckon,a change of environment, a change of people, will be good.

Did i mention, if there's anything that rox my sox now. it would be donuts.NO. not those dumb fluffy donuts that idiots with a capital I, que for at raffles. my surebliss only cost me seventy cents.

oh yes, know what's the best accompaniment to mynew found sugary love? let it be men with goatee. mhmm. spell P-I-E-R-R-E P-N-G. please. wooh. a donut in one hand and a pierre png dipped in hot chocolate in the other. mhhhmmm. now, that's how i redefine -'sinful'-


anyway. for all concerned friends out there. life has been good, for me.

goodbye all.

good bye to gun who's jetting off to hongkong.bon voyage, beech! many loves!

KTM Railway Station,

Tanjong Pagar,

23 May2007,Wednesday

Nikon d50,18-55mm,vivitar 70-210mm,

Eloera Jesusa Woon.

Photo Of The Day.

-the den.-

the mono-antishag pad.

i am always torn between a good online convo and a good read.

i am always torn between a good read and a good photography trip.

But these days i think i am too caught up with reading to have time for anything else.

I have been reading quite a bit.I must say, it's quite a mind fucking adventure, considering how vastly different the subjects of my reads are.

Anyway, this has been on my mind for a while now, and i just need an outlet for this cranial churning.

It's queer how we never seem to realise that we are more attuned to personal cues than contextual and situational cues, when it comes to the thinking of a person's character? we often tag a particular character trait to a person and disregard how circumstantial and situational factors can render that trait invalid and untrue. It's like we are constantly trying to reach a dispositional conclusion , instead of a contextual explanation to a person's actions, simply because it's so much easier that way.

Well,wont you agree, that everyone behave and speaks differently in the various enviroments and circumstance they are in? they act accordingly to what they seem will render the most positive outcome of their own emotions and emotions of the social peers and counter parts? If everyone has the propensity to be of every trait, be it callousness,benevolent, generous, passive, warm, dependant, independant, so on and so forth? wont it unfair to qualify and assess that person's true worth based simply on our own cognitive bias, and how that person acts when he's with us?

Its no fault of anyone to be that way. It 's simply how our mind works, a glitch in that highly complex processor up there. we like to keep things simple. it's going to be too much of a hassle to evaluate a person in every possible situation and thus make sense of it all and make decisions accordingly.

I cant reach a conclusion as yet. it's quite a handful going on in my brain now.But at least, i do think that character isnt a stable ,easily identifiable set values and traits, like how we think it is? it's more of a loosely bound bundle of habits and tendencies, dependant on circumstances. It seems that people has almost this consistent character,but it's really only so because of repetition. We have a repetition of a tendency, behaviour in a familiar enviroment, that we think can and will result in the most positive outcome of our emotions and acceptance from people around us. Simply, the consistency of a character stems from our ability in controlling environment that we are familiar in. So does it mean, that we can only see the true worth of a person, when that person is in threat , and in foreign situation? well, not really too. Actions and decisions is that situation is probably quite skewed too. After all, they are based on intuitions without adequate knowledge . Rational behaviour can only be a result of sufficient knowledge and predictability of the outcome, no?

alright. anyway, for those who wants to know what i have been busy with. here's it. a section of my new revamped den.

:D mum says, it's like a diskco. WTH. but yeaaaaah im lovin' it.

now readin' - sara paretsky - a taste of life

now listenin'- The pushtwangers - electric child
now eatin' - banana nut crunch with oats and multigrain milk. YUMMAY!

-satchets of apologies on the jet plane-

i am sorry for always giving you empty promises, and disappointing you time and time again.
i am sorry for not being able to celebrate your birthday .
i am sorry for not being able to meet up as often as i think we should.
i am sorry for not dropping by your place to help you pack last night.
i am sorry for not being able to send you off at the airport later.

i am sorry how i disappeared from our friendship for the past few months.
i am sorry for not being able to reply your online msgs.
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i am sorry that despite all, you still stuck around,as my best friend, as my elthevin.
i am sorry that i havent being the best friend that you are to me.