Tuesday, October 02, 2007'♥
i congratulate myself on this mental flagellation.
Of people, whom have known me long enough, should know there are but few issues, these days that can leave me feeling this embittered and unsure.
Maybe it's because, of the sheer fact, of how i am here today, isnt, by any chance a stroke of luck , or a beholden opportunity of a lifetime of grades and tests.
it's because, i know i havent got it easy, i cherish and relish my chances in this pursuit of knowledge now. for the first time in a long while, i have enough capacity to look at myself in the mirror and know what i want, for no one, but myself.
Because i have failed once too many,
i cant take failures anymore.
not this time round.
not when i tried,
or least i thought i did.
in prayers, i seek hope.