Wednesday, October 24, 2007'♥
-come, sweeten every afternoon.-
when you are the only one who makes me feel that it's only yesterday that i held your hand for the first time-
when you take the effort to wake up a little earlier to make breakfast after a late night-
when you and your folks go beyond the miles to curb my midnight durian cravings-
when you indulge me in all my wayward eating habits and tantrums-
when you are seemingly the one whom i have endless conversations with-
when you are always the one who grabs my laundry and towels from the maid-
when your patience never seems to wear out with my lyrical handicaps-
when you can never stop thinking of buying me wallets,clothes and bags in every single shop that we are in-
when my girlfriend tells me you are for keeps-
when you tell me that you are already saving up for that promissory band-
when you always remember to ask me if i will be your girlfriend every single morning-
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when it's 2 hours and 52 mins to our monniversary-
i think you would agree,
this honeymoon period cant feel any longer.
i <3 you, huns.
Tuesday, October 16, 2007'♥
i am terribly overwhelmed by sch work now.
i cant keep up to the elitist yardstick of the education system.
i find myself consumed and buckling under the pressure to measure up to expectations and criterion in this environment i am in.
I wont settle for mediocrity.
quote from a college teacher : worrying is like a rocking chair. it gives you something to do but it gets you nowhere.
and as fucking anal as this sounds, i cant seem to get my greys uploaded on my ipod.
just. shoot me now .
Wednesday, October 10, 2007'♥
reading : Aspects of Property Law.
Listening : Billy Talent - devil in a midnight mass
i am sick. yeah. I am running a temperature. and the eyeballs perpetually feels cooked.
well,yes,theboy have been playing nurse. It feels alittle weird, since i have never been cared for this way, nonetheless, it sure feels like a shot of whiskey in the cold winter night.
i got to admit, i am quite thoroughly pampered that, for a while, i actually entertained the idea of being bedridden, like forever.
he,my world class boyfriend. ;c)
Well, since we bought me a pair of spanking new rollerblades last weekend? We bladed 36km within 3 hours. some kind of midnight adventure and feat ey.
Pardon for the lack of interllectual and inspiring posts, not that there were many to start with, especially when school effectively depletes you all the time.
Friday, October 05, 2007'♥
- her cheshire cat smile. -
listening : The fray - Over My Head( cable car )
currently reading : The English Patient by michael Ondaadtje
+ Structure & Fabric by fosters.
The weekend's here! woooots. well, not that there is much to cheer about anyway.
( MENTAL NOTE TO SELF : RE BUSINESS MID TERMS ON MONDAY, AND BENNY RAPHEAL'S on 15th)
But , still, i would like to think that this near vacuous and uninspiring student life of mine is still worth living.
let's see,what scores high on the orgas-o-meter this weekend.
1.weekend stayover at theboy's + dinner with his channikins- ****
2.losing weight - ******
3.buying red and electric skinnies - ***
4.buying books ( Brave New World & 1984 ) -**
5.murtabak dinner with the folks. ( okaye, it almost seems like this and no2. are on the most conflicting ends of the spectrum, but ,orgasm from murtabak > thunder thighs + not being able to squeeze into skinnies. )
6. been unable to drink my payayajuice - negative ***
woots.doesnt sound too bad a weekend,ey.
so yes, if there's anything i am good at, let that be self denial.
sighs.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007'♥
i congratulate myself on this mental flagellation.
Of people, whom have known me long enough, should know there are but few issues, these days that can leave me feeling this embittered and unsure.
Maybe it's because, of the sheer fact, of how i am here today, isnt, by any chance a stroke of luck , or a beholden opportunity of a lifetime of grades and tests.
it's because, i know i havent got it easy, i cherish and relish my chances in this pursuit of knowledge now. for the first time in a long while, i have enough capacity to look at myself in the mirror and know what i want, for no one, but myself.
Because i have failed once too many,
i cant take failures anymore.
not this time round.
not when i tried,
or least i thought i did.
in prayers, i seek hope.
