Friday, January 12, 2007'♥
It has been raining since monday and it doesnt seem to be stopping any time soon.
It's with every occasion that i am caught in the rain that it dawns upon me how far i have come along, and the realization of how my life has drastically changed.For a moment then, it doesnt seem to matter anymore, that i will be sopping wet.i just needed to feel the rain drops running down the face, just needed to feel the dampness of the cloth to my skin. i want to feel depurated, and less overwhelmed than i already am.
i am out of sch now. i have withdrawn from school.
Reasons are aplenty, and of which, many of them, should just be kept private to the special ones that have been around for me this week. sis, mum,gun,elthevin, myboy ,rightie and others who have been worried for me.
i am alittle lost now. i have fallen hard this time round, and i reckon it will take some time to get back again. There are so just many things that i have to come to terms with , and accept them. i will not see this as a failure,though i know better how and why everything happened the way that it did today. i will look upon this as another opportunity to rediscover what i could have been and can be.
i have applied to smu law and smu accountancy.School term starts this july.
For all who cares, please pray that all goes well, and let me be who i was, and who i want to be again.
i blame noone but myself.
i will never want to fall the way that i did ,with anyone. ever again.
once again,thank you to elthevin,gun and theboy for been around this week.
there's only so much they can do, it's all up to me now.
Up to me to make a difference in my own life, and my family's life.
go.just go like you should.
11:37 AM
