Saturday, December 30, 2006'♥
this is as anal as it gets.literally.
i havent been pooping for the longest time now. it's really no good if i grow too reliant on laxatives to ease my bowel all the time.
oh i watched night at the museum with rod on thursday . i would prefer adam sandler to ben stiller's works anytime but nonetheless,it was good.but i think it was the green tea ice cream that made our day?
hah. then i finished my of mice and men by ben steinback too. it's good, i suppose. not too bad for a quick read,i wld say.
so yeah i spent the night over at my grans. nothing beats spending time with them.Really there's something just inexplicable watching two aged people going about their daily chores. Just watching the handsome gait of my granddad as his footsteps shuffle along the corridors, or watching the feeble hands of my grandma as she threads her needle, is , just so calming.
increasingly, i am becoming more at peace with myself and the things around me these days. i guess it has been easier for me to find contentment in the littlest of all things. i realised i was being too hard on myself in the past.
it's going to be 5 days with the tays at a chalet over at pasir ris. well. i am already there right at this moment. and i cant believe i cycled alone for 4 hours. well not that, 4 hours is a big deal, but around the same pasir ris park and park connectors for 4 hours is no joke.anyway it's extremely thereupatic, i swear. i didnt realise i cycle that long too? i guess that 's what happens when you have your ipod, and when you allow yourself to immerse yourself fully in the embrace of nature.
it must be the breeze. it was as delicate as fingers that, of a mother, running ever so gently in your hair, stroking the face and soothing your worries. then it's also watching the sunset casting its myriad hues of orange and reds on the sea as those men cast their rods in for their final catch of the day that's so surreal. instantaenously, it's almost like you have attained a sense of nirvana, where nothing else matters anymore.
why should it matter? when you cant lose what you never did own, and you cant gain what never did belong. it's especially so, when you will lose all that's in your possession in your final last breath, the more you owned, the more you will have to give up.
then.hmmm. i am happy. i cant tell why. i just am. it's something inside. i dont know. does it mean anything at all when you have a particular song on repeat mode, then you start smiling to yourself like a dumbfuck?
