okaye.
i am supposed to go down to chinatown today for my shoot.
but i just cant seem to get my ass down to work.
then bestie and gang are zouking tonight too. and on friday too?
i am tired still. from the wedding, and how this week has been so far.
i havent been sleeping well, yes, this 's what happens when you sleep at insane hrs like 5 in the morning, and to wake up at 10 , and then to be out the entire day on yr feet to be on the run to all the different places.
but anyway, photography's liberating . it's amazing how it enlivens your senses and soul? it impels someone to take a step back,to well, smell the roses,after been caught up and being so consumed in their daily lives. it demands the mind and senses to be washed over slowly, by each and every sight and smell . it allows you to immerse yourself fully in a environment that has been so foreign. To breathe, and to feel the stories of strangers,of people that you have always brushed past in the streets, of people whom you have never taken notice of,and have been looking upon them with tinted eyes.
it almost offers you a kind of solace and escapism in the realism of reality itself. it's totally ironic,but its true. somehow, it affirms the whole beauty of life with the extremities of both pain and joy? and how life entails of the different hues of beauty in its myriad facets?
well anyway, the wedding was good. it brought the household back together. at least,now things arent like before ; cadavers of strained emotions and pain teetering on the loose strands of kinship. it's almost like a rebirth, a renewal of a home i never had. well, not that things before, were really bad, but it could have been better. it's also not as if now, everyone's been extremely mirthful abt things too?
but at least , no one dreads coming home anymore. and now, i have got a older brother, that i always wanted as a little girl? and yes, my alltimefav mum and a prettynice sister, for now.
and i think i have been a good daughter. haha!
i have been doing the chores OKAYE?
cleaning the toliets, doing the laundry, ironing, mopping, vaccuuming. you name it, i have done it!
then i just did my accts for this month. i spent $2.4 k just this month. shiets.
$1.4k : my mean machine
$50 : online books
$300 : allowance
$400 : shopping
$230 : guess bag ===> i really really gotta have it. ):
$300 : bangkok
my bank's depleting . boo. let's find work soon.
haha! i will sell apple pies for the coming festive season! who want ! who want !
or maybe i can set up a zhi char store with dennis selling horfun and shite loads of other things!
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i am happy . are you?
