Sunday, December 31, 2006'♥
i have been so busy lately that even sitting by the com for a breather, is a LUXURY.
havent had the time to sit down, and well, just think. to think and sort out this slew of jumbled mess up in that cranial.
i am home at last. only for a while i guess. all that travelling from pasir ris to yew tee is wearing me down. Then i guess it's the lack of sleep since that bangkok trip.i am tired.
well nye this year's going to be alittle different. company's different, for one. and the things we are going to do is , well for sure, something that i would never think of doing on nye.
yeah. john and i are going to mount faber via that trusty cable car for a nye fireworks shoot.
well, we wanted to do a dinner picnic too, with fondue and all.
but it's all going to be too much of a hassle. it's going to be a quiet nye on a hill that overlooks the singapore skylines.
it
should WILL be good, i suppose. ;)
then it 's with his friends later in the night at The Balcony. it will just be us with the mozzies and our choco pot.
there's alot on my mind lately. yeah. it's going to be 6 mods next sem. it aint going to be easy. then the internship too.and the exchange prog. everything suddenly seems to0 overwhelming for me. then i realised too, every step taken forward, could just be another step back. i think it's the concious realization of you moving on , that induces this withdrawal drawback into what was before.Then you start having that fear spread over you. i dont like it. it isnt good.
i have been talking to mum alot, about what has been happening lately. you will be surprised with the things i confide in her. i cant say it here but let's just say she's happy for me.
i think i changed quite abit over this whole year.i see alot of things in a different light now. for one, i am more receptive to changes . two, perspectives change with experiences and lessons learnt.
time fleets by, and as the years go, i see my dad age. there are so many times i wish i could just let everything go and treat him right again. But it has been so long, the barricades that have been built and fortified over time against him and myself is already wearing away a bond, that were once so close to our hearts.
i would love to sit around and blog alil more. but i cant. sighs. i just hate it when the entries gets so incoherent and so random, and worse , when i have yet ,to say all that i want to say.
