fuck all this anger.
fuck all this angst.
fuck the education system.
fuck this world.

like you. i need no one.

burn in hell. just burn.

-21st-

for she prays to god above;


let not ,
the ghosts of dusks enshroud the bleeding soldier once more ,

for she prays;

let not,
the rain of heaven be the tears of his yesteryears again,

for she prays ;
let not, his solace be in the godforsaken shadows of the night but in the light of dawn,

for she prays;

let not,
his wearied spirit wane in the labyrinth of his wars forevermore.

as she prays for him ;

let not,
her prayers be unheard on her last night of october.

the blubber on her lips says," shame on you, angelina jolie!"















okaye. the braces are K-I-L-L-I-N-G me. so it's like the good orthodontist of mine decided to shorten my lifespan on friday by putting the braces on my lower gums after such a long time?

so now METAL TEETH's officially back in operation, fully equipped with metal springs, wires and brackets to cut, tear, and bite her way through everything.

yesyes,so what's new. the braces are cutting my lower lips and making them swell so big that angelina jolie's bound to envy me and for that she'll pay my orthodontist a million bucks to have her lips look like mine.

it freaking hurts like hell, and my lower lip now is like some kind of secret plantation, blooming with all kinds and sizes of ulcers.
yeah. imagine ulcers with size of a quarter of your nail? all green ,and blooody with white pus.

i am like some diseased std freak on the loose.

not as if this isnt bad enough, i havent been able to eat anything solid since friday and just within this weekend i lost 1 kg to be 41.5kg now. it's no good when you are loosing your all preciousb-o-o-obies. for the first time, i will scream and yell ' i need some weight back.'

then NEVERMIND. know what's worse? i am losing control of my lower lips and this means i cant talk and there are times that i drool and i wont know till it drips?


i am messed up as can be. HOW HOW. TELL ME HOW.


sad is the girl who carries her blubber on her lips.



the end. :C_

[time : 11.35am]
[song : the scientist- coldplay]



The soldier.


Those velvet dreams of melancholy ,
Like a burnt out ancient star,
They speak of him and his shadows.
Those dreams and solace,
creatures and death;
Like a elegant tapestry in the guises of darkness,
They resonate the delicate trappings of time -
Such a love that is immutable,
Such a body that is deeper than the soul..


but as dawn breaks again;
pray not he forgets ,
and let there no more goodbyes..

i am back from the dentist.
totally horrified and tramautised.
but we will leave the grisly details aside.

till this date, 7 good toothy comrades have been lost in this noble cause of the orthodontic preservation of oral aesthestics.





















and now.
i am $225 poorer. and alot bloodier .

and i am still having diarrhoea since donkey days ago too.
so it's a must that i indulge in my bestfriend to relieve me of all this pain.

please say 'ello' to my mrpeterpanpeanutbutter. his pet name's creamypete but that's only for me to call. so yeah. (:

hello everyone!

yes . i am back after a short but definately a well deserved hiatus!
life goes on and please say 'ello' to e-exodus. it's a new blog, of course.
but anyway. life's back to norm and as wretched as it can gets.
nevertheless, i cant be thankful enough for all who has been around!

so here are the random pics on a random saturday. 21/10/06 .
with some of my very random friends whom i havent been in contact for the longest time?
but i am glad we are picking up from where we left off.




















ahh. t'was a very good night with lotsa sheesha,viceroys,coffee,foul with sausages, teas, hellava evil games AND even more evil irwin and gang that left my thumb sore and a mighty wicked electric lighter that electrocudes the day lights out of poor people like ME and CHOW!

and . heh heh heh. the smu proletariat! more crubbbbing please! (;




for now ,
weekdays, i will be a mugger ninja
and weekends, behold all evilness! HAHA!



holy shite. god bless jesus christ!


BUT anyway.
and yes i have just started on my islamic thesis.


Foreplay of Islam in a Malaysian society – The religious puppeteers

wish me luck please, my good people of the dumbfuck education system of singapore.

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